is it you, is it me, or is it the month..??

aaah..it's december, indeed..
a gloom month of the year, idk why..maybe it's because it's the end of the year which makes it always feels like a farewell..
aura of farewell spreads everywhere like Dementors that spread mists and aura of hopelessness.. :p

Well..it's also the month where i have to dry my brain out, to find ideas about what *censored* .....

seeing my friends with their partners,
envy.envy.envy??yeah, absolutely..
but i don't know, i don't know what more to do..
i'm dang tired, all over again..
the uncertainty hangs me on the air..
i don't know whether to go left or right, stay or go away..
persisting or letting go..

...ahh, and it's raining outside..
i've learned that rain'll be beautiful when i was delighted..
but turns out it'll be as Dementor when i was in a gloomy mood..

i just miss you, why don't you just stay the same?
i just need you, why should i bother other stuff?
i just care for you, why would i need another man?

so,
is it you, is it me, or is it just December all over again..??