is it you, is it me, or is it the month..??

aaah..it's december, indeed..
a gloom month of the year, idk why..maybe it's because it's the end of the year which makes it always feels like a farewell..
aura of farewell spreads everywhere like Dementors that spread mists and aura of hopelessness.. :p

Well..it's also the month where i have to dry my brain out, to find ideas about what *censored* .....

seeing my friends with their partners,
envy.envy.envy??yeah, absolutely..
but i don't know, i don't know what more to do..
i'm dang tired, all over again..
the uncertainty hangs me on the air..
i don't know whether to go left or right, stay or go away..
persisting or letting go..

...ahh, and it's raining outside..
i've learned that rain'll be beautiful when i was delighted..
but turns out it'll be as Dementor when i was in a gloomy mood..

i just miss you, why don't you just stay the same?
i just need you, why should i bother other stuff?
i just care for you, why would i need another man?

so,
is it you, is it me, or is it just December all over again..??

..The Chronicles..

it's started on May the 2nd, began with a midnight call..
there, the seed's been planted..i started to give attention more than i did..
as time rolls by, attention i gave turned to a larger scale..
what then i least expected to happen was that it grew to something even bigger..
yeah, the attention has been affection instead..

it's not been an easy one..
to be told, it's the hardest occasion i should face, at least until this age of mine..
he's always surrounded by girls..and he's too kind to say NO..
whether he is, or he's just too greedy, i don't know..

*censored*

hmm, but to tell you the truth, it's really something that they called 'unconditional love'
have you ever feel like you care for somebody, and you can't find a reason, a single reason why you do so??

well, i'll tell you, it's because there IS NO reason for it..
you simply do because it IS him..

you may meet one or more other boys that attract you..
but your heart would NEVER EVER turn its back from him..

well..it's never been an easy one..

ganbatte.. :)